22.04.2008 : Gordon Dodds wrote I have been through the first anniversary of when Chris was taken into the hospital for the first time. April 21st 2007, was it that long ago? If only we knew then what we know now. Nothing would change, but we should have known. We had 10 months , of which 9 were very good. and the last month was good but we both knew. We had Holly half way through December and she was magic for Chris. You can always say we should have got her earlier, but if we had, it wouldn't have been Holly. Chris managed to take her for "a walk" with Chris in her buggy and Holly trotting along behind. What lovely memories but never to be repeated. I love you Doddy Add memory |  Request removal

26.04.2008 : Gordon Dodds wrote There is no reason to write this apart from I don't want Chris ever to be forgotten. Tomorrow is Trevithick Day. For Camborne this is a special day.Kirstie, our daughter, was in the first ever Children's dance. Since then Chris has always been in Camborne for the day.I say in Camborne and not at Trevithick Day because she was always in the Centre, making people happy, which was her way of life. Why couldn't she have spent more time on her own life? Easy answer - she cared - about everybody bar herself. You read about all the Birthday Honours, see who gets them and think to yourself "has nobody got a brain?". People do a day to day job for 25 years and get recognition. Others, Chris, put their lives on hold purely and simply to help others. She wouldn't have wanted anything like that but I wanted it for her. She deserved recognition but it is now too late for her to get it. Add memory |  Request removal

28.04.2008 : Gordon Dodds wrote Monday 28th April 2008 Another Anniversary, 10 weeks, we are now in double figures. There must be a time when things appear better but I can't see it yet. I have had a lot of support but without being insulting, it doesn't mean a thing. I lost Chris,and that is all I can think of. To have known her for 48 years and to have lived with her for 43 years is too much to cope with. She was marvellous, she was great, she was the best thing in life, she was Chris. I miss her so much. I know everbody on this site is in the same situation but I feel different (doesn't everybody). For everybody in the same situation, hang on in there. You feel so alone, but there are so many people out here, who know how you feel.You may not think so ,because you feel so alone but so many have lost loved ones and they know how your thoughts twist and turn. To every one, have a good night, take care of yourself, think tomorrow that you are going to wake up and have a better day. Loves you all Gordon Add memory |  Request removal

30.04.2008 : Gordon Dodds wrote 30th April 2008 Another month about to close. How many special dates or anniversaries can you go through? I thought, by now, things would be getting easier. But unfortunately that is not true. I need help but unfortunately the person who has always been my help, has now passed away. If I needed help, Chris was always there, she may not have had the answers but she always knew how to make you feel better. She was the perfect solution to every problem, she had the knack of knowing exactly what to do or what to say. No education, no qualifications just a heart the size of the Grand Canyon. So many people are going to miss her but none so much as me. I need you Doddy. Add memory |  Request removal

01.05.2008 : Gordon Dodds wrote I keep hoping that another day will make me feel better. I read an entry about a girl who had lost her husband. I thought, write to her and make her feel better. I have tried three times, I can't. If I write the words I feel it would only make her feel worse. All I would be able to do do is tell her I feel the same after 73 days. She must be hoping that things may get better. I cannot write and spoil her dreams. I want and need Chris more than anything I have ever known. She was my life, I don't want a life without her. We always had something, a birthday, holiday at Babbacombe, Christmas or just even the kids coming around. I want to wake up tomorrow lying next to Chris. We were happy with what we had. 43 years of making do and saving for a rainy day and now I have nothing. I hate life, I hate what it has taken from me. We had a little bit of money just to do the things we thought we would enjoy when we retired, but no WHY !!!! Gordon Add memory |  Request removal